It’s Always Easier In Memories

Someone asked me what I thought was hardest in this last heart transplant? My answer inside my lil brain was “YIKES” the list is as the day is long! My verbal answer actually came out in studders and tripping over words. Finally I came up with a couple tough times outta the many.

The most troublesome to me was dragging Renee through this all to familiar battle! Surely she knew what laid ahead as I also knew, nothing and I mean nothing is near to our imagining. Yes the outcome ended up in what we call “Gods continuing hand on me” and of course we know I’m alive only because of God grace but still, this was really hard on us and especially Renee. Love conquers everything but the fact remains, this was hard!

Another tough ever present battle was the fact that my body has battled and clawed through sickness my whole life along with way too many meds & multiple existing and ever present health issues. At this transplant I’m already 34 years out past the heart & lungs transplant, 24 years out from Renee giving me a kidney! Then there’s the truth that getting this new heart, I’m 63 years old.

I never thought my age would matter but it did. As I was being rolled into the surgery room one of the nurses mentioned it would be a lot tougher this time around, her statement surprised me! I told her no worries, I’ve been through this stuff a lot. The first time I awoke after surgery she was correct, I felt just like I always have after a big surgery, warmed over burnt, hurting ball of everything wrong!

Eventually I was able to focus on life around me and there was Renee & Cody! I had survived and now the fight in me found it’s foothold, Thank You Jesus!!

So this person who asked me what was the most troublesome problaly really didn’t want that much of a reply but that’s me and what I do. Then they asked asked “would you have had the heart transplant if you had known how hard it would be? My answer was and still is, “ in a heart beat”.