Just Run With It?

March 1998

Being sick is one of those things in life no one wants, but nonetheless we don’t always get what we want. Sickness often hits out of nowhere even when we believe we have everything in hand. Ha, do we ever have control of our bodies and health?

Maybe we should expect to get sick? Yeh, that’s a resounding No! I instead say live life the best we can knowing others are struggling with worse, this way it helps us to stop complaining, there’s always worse!

So here we with Renee and I once again needing to make a huge decision, get the transplant scheduled or not. Very weird, the choice is easy but hard at the same time, it’s not just me this time. Renee is amazing, for her this a no brainer, for me this feels as if I’m taking something from her that I shouldn’t. The what ifs are massive! This is a major gift she’s pouring out on me and a major surgery for her to go through! I know she’s not blinking about this, she is willing to and is all in, whatever it takes to help me live. Wow, do I deserve this from my wife? Regardless, this is love in its purest form, of course I do not deserve this.