Fathers Day
From day one of my entrance into this beautiful world i was sick, that’s what being born with a genetic disease does. No choice, no changing outcomes or fixing the problem, I have cystic fibrosis and pay the price every day. Don’t get me wrong, if I had the chance of doing life all over I would choose my exact life I have now, I LOVE MY LIFE and everything in it, God has truly blessed me !
Of course I do not understand everything but something that really confuses me is back when I was born, I had a dad. Key word was had, by the time I was 3 years old he left. I was told he couldn’t handle having a sick stricken son and that was that.
During the years I think he tried to see me 2 times but my Mom said no but I don’t blame her, It was a very rough divorce. One of those times he came to our home to get me for the weekend, they had a big fight and he slit the tires on Moms car. It all started because of the medical stuff he need to take for me and he said no. So that was the gist of life for Mom and me.
I don’t hold anything against him, life is life and we all have problems and carry hurt, my faith in Jesus allows me to see and trust. I believe he could had done life better but I’m sure he didn’t plan his life to be this way.
I write this not feel sorry for me, it’s sad for this man that never became my father. I heard he died around 5 years ago and while I am saddened for what he missed I know I tried as an adult to reach out to him.
Renee and I had just returned from living in Missouri for awhile and it was Father’s Day. We had a friend who worked with him for awhile and I got his phone number. I called him and Renee and I went over to visit, not sure what I was expected, probably a a lot. After a one and a hours we left feeling as if we met a decent man. He didn’t slam Mom, he made no excuse for anything as if he was a hollow man I never knew.
He wasn’t my father, he was just a guy who participated in my birth, very sad. The miracle of life and birth is so much, it’s God given. I am so blessed by God himself to have two grown boys, ha, grown men now and Renee and I love the privilege & joy to have them !
Dads please don’t miss out on what you have been given ! It’s never too late to jump in if you haven’t and if you can hug & kiss them, show them how much their loved, you can do it, look forward not at the past….
